Medical Update

Oh, I wanted you all to know that my feet are finally normal again. I ended up calling the doctor's office and the nurse told me that if it persists after like 10 days, I can come in and she'd give me something. However, on the morning of day 10, it was all better!!! It's like my feet knew and were like "Oh crap!! She's going to do something drastic to us. Quick! Abandon all water! Look skinny! Suck in your cheeks. Turn to the side. We do NOT want her to take care of this medically. DROP EVERYTHING NOW!!!" I literally woke up to feet half the size of the previous day. It's been great every day since.

Also, I know many MANY people were concerned about my post pardom crying. I was one of them!! I just couldn't stop crying for like 5 days straight. Everything would set me off. The funny thing is that my baby never made me cry!! Looking at Raya would make me cry. And I think I cried about what I was going to eat one day.

One of the things that was really causing me trouble and stress was the worries about if we were going to move or not. It was our plan to be leaving the last week of June and start school in Missouri in the fall. When I realized that the day after I brought home my baby from the hospital, I just freaked out. I had a total meltdown. I told Marcelo I couldn't do it. I told him we needed to stay around until at LEAST the end of July (when we are having a family reunion).

The move to the Midwest all hinged on the sale of our home. As you know, it hasn't sold yet, so plans had to be modified. We decided to rent out our home and move into my mom's apartment in Provo for a short time. At least till the end of summer when I think I'll have more of a handle on this mommy thing. When we finally made this decision, this greatly decreased the amount of crying. The funny thing is that I could probably do it now if you asked me. But at that time i just wasn't ready. But don't worry, I'm not going anywhere soon.

But the Sunday after I gave birth was the last day I cried. I think the hormones were just working themselves out of me. And the stresses of OTHER things being done, I had nothing else to cry about. Like I said, it was never about my baby. I never cried about her or about anything related to her. She's been the one great thing in my life.

Marcelo was REALLY worried about me. He said, "You act so sad. This is what you wanted!! What is the matter with you? Why aren't you happy? You are like so sad, and this is what you wanted." I wish I could've told him why the tears just wouldn't stop. I tried to tell him about the hormones, but he thought it was just an excuse. Finally when OTHERS told him about the hormones, then he believed me. Why is that? Wife=Crazy but same info from another person? Oh, he'll believe that in a second.

And sometimes it was comical the things I would cry about. Even as I was crying, I was thinking to myself "STOP CRYING!! YOU ARE BEING RIDICULOUS!" I was just glad when it stopped. I felt really out of control for a while there.

My doctor gave me 3 prescriptions, but I never filled a single one. I don't know why I didn't. I guess I just didn't think that I needed them. One was for Percocet, and another one was for Motrin 800. Well, I can just take 4 tablets of 200mg Motrin and I don't need to waste money on a Motrin prescription, right? And the third one was for some sort of low dose birth control pill. I don't plan on going back on the pill anytime soon, so I don't need to take that one either.

I really think I should've talked to my doctor about my plans to never fill any prescription he gave me. But the last time I saw him, there were (no joke) ONE MILLION people in my room. Well, ok maybe not that many. I think there were only 12 or 13. But that's still lots!! And my doctor wanted to examine me, and talk about post pardom care. And I didn't know at that time if I would even be in the state of Utah for my 6 week check up. (cause we were still planning on moving at that time) And I wanted to talk to him about that, but again, there were all those people there.

I should've just kicked them out, but I felt guilty doing that. I mean, they were all there to see me, right? I just couldn't do that, much to my own detriment. Anyway, I really should've kicked those people out so I could have a heart to heart with my doctor. But at least I'll be able to talk to him during my 6 week post pardom check up.

So that's my current medical status. I'm very happy to be over the constant crying. And to have feet at a normal size again. And to have such a sweet baby. Have you seen this girl? MAN! She's freaking gorgeous. Let's just hope she stays like this. My baby is perfect.